The Longer I Hold                     

R Edgar   2004

 

The longer I hold

The higher I go

Neighbors and soldiers

Crouching below

 

Hard to explain what my eyes have exposed

Peeling this Polaroid history.

No bridge from the last moment’s leading to this

And the future’s corrupted by mystery.

 

The longer I hold

The higher I go

Vespas and taxicabs

Crawling below

 

Through candles your green eyes took in the crowds

And your hands were warm around mine

Hotels were empty their front doors ajar

Lemon grass soup spilled in French wine

 

The longer I hold

The higher I go

The morning is young

The victory cold.

 

 

Rushing past others

                   Our boots on the ground

                   Our politics reasoned

                   Our strategies sound.

 

                   And though time was streaming

                   It seems just a second

                   Did you think it was really

                   Our safety that beckoned?

 

          The longer I hold

          The higher I go

          I’m alive but I’m hanging

          It’s a risk I was sold.

 

I stumbled with refugees, shared cigarettes

And walked through the smoking staging zone

Suddenly sprinting as the chopper was lifting

Do the news photos show that I hang alone?

 

The longer I hold

The higher I go

The prop wash so hot

My fingers so cold.

The longer I hold

The higher I go

The longer I hold

The higher I go.